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I forgive you.
I forgive you for not knowing any better.
I forgive you for not knowing HOW to love our family, because you never had a loving father in yours.
I understand growth/breaking cycles is uncomfortable. I understand it is hard to change your living to be different from what you’re used to, or what you were taught. I understand growing up in the church/school did its toll on you.
I just hope one day you will be able to forgive yourself — forgive yourself for not always having enough money, forgive yourself for spending so much tie away and alone, because you didn’t know how to be a father.
I forgive you for taking your anger out on us physically, because you weren’t taught how to handle your feelings.
I FORGIVE YOU
– Heather Holland
I can’t help but feel angry with you.
As a mom, I always think why didn’t you protect me?
Why didn’t you try to be closer to me?
Help me? Show me you love me? Cared for me? Accepted me?
Is it because I remind you of him? We’re you tired when you had me? Did you not want me? Is it that you hate me? Do you see you in me? Are we more alike than I would never wish for? Or is it because I had to be so much more stronger than you?
All I wanted was support..love..a hug. Protection. Affection. Guidance. Sympathy. Help.
All I feel is anger towards you. About you. The thought of you.
You still speak to the person who changed me. Who hurt me. It’s as if you don’t even care. Or, do you choose to just ignore what happened because it’s easier for you.
I had to let you go.
You will always be my mother, but how you treat me I do not need to accept it. You will not change, and I accept that now. But I don’t have to stay because it’s easier for you.
Good bye mother,
I refuse to let you hurt me any longer.