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This Years Goals and Intentions | 2023

by boxofknots March 17, 2023

2022 was a year full of transitions and realizations that brought on lots of healing that needed to be felt and dealt with.

Looking back, I can see that what I’m doing “now” is far beyond the scope of what I thought I was ever capable of. I’ve learned that I’m capable of just about anything. And that is an inner empowerment I hope my Life Bookers feel and experience one day.

I have set some big goals for 2023 that I know will be hard, but are 100% necessary. These goals will help lay the foundation for the bigger impact BOX of KNOTS is meant to have on families around the world.

This year we recently opened up shipping to CANADA (huge step!) and I can’t explain what it means but I know its BIG. I’ve realized that no matter where people are in the world, a lot of us live parallel lives where our struggles become relatable. It’s been an honor to create Life Books that hold all the pieces together. I know that reach needs to continue farther and wider until the “Each-One-Reach-One” model is fulfilled.

The reality of the Each-One-Reach-One model is that The Life Book needs to reach-each-home. Which- if you can imagine is a very difficult task to lay a blanket notebook across. Which is why I’ve taken The Life Book to great lengths, expanding to the budget friendly Spiral and the newest Pocket Edition.

By expanding the line to different sizes and price ranges I’ve essentially set myself back farther from my original-day-one goal.

This goal is to lower the cost of the Original XL Life Book overhead so that the Each-One-Reach-One model could be fulfilled. This model means that for each Original XL Life Book sold, one would be gifted to someone on the Free Life Book Wait List.

This free wait list has been growing for the last 5 years. It is the ULTIMATE goal to one day be able to fulfill all those patiently waiting. Until then…I will continue creating and designing packs that ya’ll have been asking for (fitness, tarot, health, living).

I am looking forward to what 2023 has in store for The Life Book Project! And most importantly, I’m looking forward to doing it alongside all the #lifebookers 🤍

Thank you for continuing to support this mission and help me bring it to what it was always meant to be.

Thank you for another year helping BOX of KNOTS grow and connect communities that cultivate kindness and authentic living.

March 17, 2023

Dear Dad by Heather Holland

by boxofknots July 24, 2020

written by boxofknots

A special friend and Life Booker shared this letter to her father that I had to share. I wont lie- I cried when she read it on her instagram LIVE and asked if I could share it with you guys.

This letter is sacred, personal, vulnerable as fuck. I resonate with it on so many levels and appreciate Heather for allowing me to share this big step of her healing process. I hope that others follow in her path and feel the strength to write their own “Letter to Dad”.

DEAR DAD,

I forgive you.

I forgive you for not knowing any better.

I forgive you for not knowing HOW to love our family, because you never had a loving father in yours.

I understand growth/breaking cycles is uncomfortable. I understand it is hard to change your living to be different from what you’re used to, or what you were taught. I understand growing up in the church/school did its toll on you.

I just hope one day you will be able to forgive yourself — forgive yourself for not always having enough money, forgive yourself for spending so much tie away and alone, because you didn’t know how to be a father.

I forgive you for taking your anger out on us physically, because you weren’t taught how to handle your feelings.

I am not making excuses for you, I am just letting this go for ME.

I need you to know that I am breaking cycles and doing the hard things for MY son so he knows a parents’ love differently than I did.

I FORGIVE YOU

I forgive you for being drunk most of my life.

I forgive you for putting my life, my brother’s life, my mom’s life, and your own life in danger.

I forgive you for not getting help.

I forgive you for not being brave enough to grow. I forgive you for being selfish .

I forgive you for calling me fat. I know I am beautiful and was never FAT. I was only malnourished because of the shit food we always had available.

I forgive you for leaving.

I forgive you for going to have a life AFTER your divorce.

I forgive you for not showing up the HAND-FULLS of times you didn’t, when you said you would be there.

I forgive you for you lack of parenting skills.

I forgive you for not always calling me on my birthday, even if I am your first child.

I forgive you for being closed-minded, racist, and an egotistical, insecure man.

THANK YOU

Thank you for giving me life.

Thank you for saving my brother’s life.

Thank you for helping me move into my dorm.

Thank you for being with Mom when I couldn’t.

Thank you for trying with Jonathan.

I forgive you for being a liar, and a drug addict.

I forgive you for spending more time with Chrystal because she had drugs.

I FORGIVE YOU.

Thank you for showing me the kind of parent I wanted to be.

I forgive you for going to jail on my birthday because you were driving drunk.

I forgive you for valuing your belongings more than your children.

I’m still sad, but I forgive you.

Thank you for all of your shortcomings because now I know how to fly.

I’ve learned so much trying to “get over this”, and it sucks that my son only HEARS about my dad, and has no relationship with him.

I won’t apologize for not answering when you call or not making my way to find you.

I forgive you for letting me find myself.

– Heather Holland

SUBMIT A LETTER

If you have a letter you’ve written to heal and would like to submit it for other to read and have the opportunity to relate, please submit your letter here.

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July 24, 2020

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START WHERE YOU ARE: PERSPECTIVE PROMPTS

by boxofknots March 15, 2019

written by boxofknots

PERSPECTIVE IS KEY

Each photo was taken from my point of view at a time I was processing a moment in my life. Use these photos and their headings to put yourself in a different perspective and try to see it with open eyes so you can help draw parallels in your life by seeing it in a bigger picture.